Archive for January, 2009

City Mouse Country Mouse

Posted in community, Humboldt County on January 29, 2009 by inretaliation

I am a country mouse, I always have been.  I grew up in a small town.  When I played house as a child my house was in the middle of a big meadow far away from town.  Now I live on the outskirts of an even smaller town.  I love it.  I love my land, I love building my home from the ground up.  I love knowing everyone in my community.  I might even love everyone in my community on some level or another, just because they contribute to the way things are.

My only problem is what to do, if you have city mouse offspring?  Bigger towns have so much to offer children. Our school doesn’t even have enough kids to have a soccer team.  IF I were in town I could have my pick of wonderful alternative schools.  My kids could have music, dance and swimming lessons, tutors, and team sports.  They could walk to a friends house or at least ride their bikes.  We would have greater access to museums and theater.  Oh, it would be divine.

Wouldn’t it?  Or would we be so busy we would forget about our family?  Would we garden together, or go on hikes?  Would we eat or read or listen to music together?  Would we have horses, chickens, dogs, cats and maybe someday goats?  Would we remember the beach or the river?  Would we trust every parent at the school, or an event to have our child’s best interest in mind, to be looking out for them?  Would we know every teacher or instructor on a first name basis?  Would our kids hug them?

It is so difficult to know if you are doing the right thing.  Is the right thing for you the right thing for your child?  If it is not, is it still ok to trust that they are learning valuable things form where they are, and they will have plenty of chances in their life to experience what they love?  Should we sacrifice the way of life we have chosen and built, for a brief interlude of convenience?  Or is it more important for our children to img_1951learn how to be centered and sure of themselves, and therefore able to accomplish anything they set their mind to even if they have to wait until they are grown?

Arcata

Posted in Humboldt County on January 26, 2009 by inretaliation

big_fieldI was in Los Bagels the other day reading The LumberJack.  I came upon an article outlining the changes in 215 regulations for the city of Arcata.  Once again I am impressed by Arcata’s willingness to have its citizens participate in regulating its population.  Most of the new regulations would require neighbors tattling on neighbors.  For example, grow rooms must be located outside of the main living area of a house.  My personal favorite is this: To protect a sense of community, medical grows must not be detectable from outside the residence. This includes having several people visiting the house each day who do not participate in the community. So if neighbors or people passing by on the street can smell or see anything implying marijuana cultivation in the house, they can report the violation to the Arcata Police Department in confidentially. Penalties for violations depend on the severity of the violation.  I feel sorry for the police officers who have to investigate every irate neighbors claim.  

This vote by the city council illustrates Arcata’s peculiar brand of government.  Their belief that government should be involved in every aspect of our lives bothers me.  I feel as if it encourages all of us to stoop to the lowest common denominator.  In the council’s mind we need laws to distinguish between right and wrong.  Most people cannot be trusted to know or follow these unwritten social laws.  They need clear cut guidance in the form of regulations.  We are all encouraged to police our fellow man. Unfortunately that sense of power sometimes goes to a person’s head.  Believing that they know better then others, they incessantly meddle and sometimes even exaggerate offenses.

The Great… Hope

Posted in politics on January 21, 2009 by inretaliation

I woke up late this morning.  Ughh, I hate waking up late!  I was less then gentle in getting my oldest out of bed.  My mood soon changed as I set up the computer for the kids to watch while they ate (we do not have tv).  They were an attentive audience  since they hardly ever get to watch movies let alone at breakfast.  They dutifully listened to me explain the importance of this day while they exclaimed over the president elect’s daughters and how pretty they were.  I switched to the radio when it was time to drive them to school.  When I arrived at the elementary school I noticed that across the street the community center was packed.  I remembered the notice that a group of people would be getting together for a potluck breakfast and a viewing of the inauguration.  I told the children they were welcome to come with me across the street as long as they didn’t mind being late for school.  (I needn’t have worried for the youngest, since her preschool teacher had left a note for everyone to meet at the Community center anyway.) After the President’s speech I walked the kids back across the street and drove to work.

The explanation to my children this morning really made me question why this day was special to me.  You see, I did not vote for Obama, nor have I ever watched an inauguration before.  I voted for a write in candidate.  I do not think that Obama is a revolutionary politician.  I think he is a centrist.  I don’t think he has ever professed to be anything else.  (One reason why I grudgingly like him.)  

I can’t help but have a renewed sense of hope in our country with the outcome of this election.  I think that renewed hope has everything to do with a sense of color.  It is inspiring to me that we can finally be accepting enough for the majority to vote someone of color into office.  That action, I think will trigger all sorts of other actions in the right direction until we really do not notice the color of someone’s skin.  We almost have to make a point of noticing before we are able to see past it. blackandwhitehands

Fear of Change

Posted in politics with tags on January 16, 2009 by inretaliation

th_hybridfest083The conversation around the fire after dinner last night drifted towards Climate Change.  I almost always enter this discussion gleefully, only to come out on the other side feeling as if I was in the wrong argument.  I believe the climate is changing,  I am just unsure how much humankind has to do with it.  I don’t even care if they do.  I care that we all need to be so scared of a changing climate.

I am reminiscent of the Bush administration and all the things they did in fear of terrorism.  The Patriot Act, water boarding, NSA spying, all happened because we needed to protect ourselves from terrorists.  These terrorists could be anyone anywhere and we probably will never be able to wipe them all out.  What fear mongering will be done now to save us all from the climate?

Why does government insist on using fear to change or mend our ways?  Why can’t we be given the chance to embrace learning something new?  I want to strive towards change with open arms asking what it can teach me.  Instead I feel as if every new idea is shoved down my throat by facts and research.  Research that says if we don’t do something yesterday it will be the end for all of us.  Are we really so attached to the way things are now that change has to come from being afraid?

Godless

Posted in religion on January 12, 2009 by inretaliation

For the company of the godless is barren…  –Job 15:34

My parents are born again christians.  It has been a few years since they have converted.  In the beginning they would have long discussions with my sister and I about faith and the punishment of the godless.  My sister and I have yet to convert much to my parents chagrin.  

I recently happened to be at their house on a Sunday morning.  My mother invited my children to go to church with her in a very offhand way.  I politely declined on their behalf.  This prompted my mom to wonder aloud why I hated church so much.  I explained that I have nothing against her church or the fact that they go.  As a matter of fact I don’t really have anything against religion at all.

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As with politics I am of a Decline To State frame of mind when it comes to religion.  This does not mean I intend to convert on my deathbed.  I think that is very cowardly.  I just have not found any organized religion that called to me.  I find much more truth and beauty in the world around me than in a church or a dusty tome.  As for my children I don’t want anyone to tell them that anything is the absolute truth and you will believe or be punished forever after.  I don’t find fear a healthy harbor for curiosity.  I would never condemn my children for something they have faith in just as I do not condemn my parents.  My worry is for their reaction to me and mine.

Accidents

Posted in politics on January 11, 2009 by inretaliation

My husband loves his morning routine.  He gets out of bed and begins to heat water for coffee.  He then turns on the computer and starts reading the morning onslaught of news.   He recently found a video on YouTube of the New Years Eve East Bay BART shooting.  The man who was shot by an officer was lying face down.  After the gun goes off the officer who pulled the trigger looks a little stunned.  Almost as if he knows what a horrible mistake he made.  The family of the dead man are suing the BART system for 25 million dollars.  Protests and eventually riots were staged shortly after the cellphone video clips were aired on YouTube.

Many people seem to the think the officer should be punished to the fullest extent of the law.  To me this just seems to add more tragedy to situation already fraught with tension and anger.  (Johannes Mehserle just had a new baby.)  Everyone makes mistakes, some even cost multiple lives.  I agree that the man should be punished but why ruin more lives.  Is there nothing that can be learned from this accident?

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A beginning

Posted in Uncategorized on January 11, 2009 by inretaliation

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I am sitting in the winter sun listening to my kids argue.  I am trying not to be terrified that I am writing something someone other than me might see.  

I am not a quick retort.  I always think of the best thing to say hours or maybe even days after a confrontation.  Here I will begin to practice saying my piece with eloquence.

Good luck to me.